aaah i'm SUPER hungry!! X: i need food like, NOW. sigh D:
heehee just went swimming! :DD except it was super crowded ):

take my breath away;

me, cherlene, fang and yenjean went to amanda's house today! :D
my mom got SUPER lost while driving in lah -.- coz the road map was MINUSCULE and i saw the wrong street or something. damn.
haha then when i got there, only fang was there so me, fang and amanda were playing random disney tunes on the piano XD or rather, fang and amanda were playing the tunes and i was standing there like an idiot. -.- my piano sucks lah. lol but singing along is super fun (:
then cherlene arrived and we tried to teach her to play happy birthday (:
and we ate PRATA!! :DD yum... and yenjean arrived halfway while we were eating. omg the prata was SUPER nice!! the tandoori chicken and the curry was yummy :P
we played table soccer for awhile. it was super fun la! except me and fang like TOTALLY suck at it coz we don't have coordination. btw no offence or wtv fang...
and we sat in her room, playing cheat/taiti and sending songs to each other. YES! i FINALLY got ultraviolet lorh XP haha next i shall send it to edith...
next we watched marley and me! i fell asleep the bit before marley died then woke jup during the credits -.- haha then we were snatching the ribena pillow from each other... and i ended up falling asleep on it XD
ohoh and halfway through the movie there was this CREEPY guy standing outside the gate, ringing the doorbell and STARING at the house. then amanda's maid was like "oh amanda, your friend ah?" we seriously cracked up at that one XDD
turns out.. he was selling durians -.-
fang left halfway through the movie. ): so she missed out on the WONDERFULLY yummy cake we had after the movie, heehee :P
then we went across the road to the park where we spent alot of time snatching the swings from each other and burying amanda's slippers and kicking sand at each other (DON'T ASK. yeouch.) D:
lol and we went back to her home and played table soccer with her sisters again XD
then my dad came ):

anyways.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA~!
now you're finally a teen! :D have a great 13th year kays. (:

we're supposed to be friends.
so why is it that every time i see you i feel dread instead?

friday was a disappointment.

sure, it was quite fun, sitting in the canteen and chatting, occasionally talking to the teachers for about 5minutes.

but i just felt quite depressed, nostalgic and simply very tired.

on the other hand, the oreo chocolate bubble tea in coro is SUPER NICE :DD and sitting in the bookshop at beauty world for over an hour, browing and reading and watching fang laugh over the sick books slightly cheered me up (:

and we saw reudi, jonathan, m.y., zongsheng and weisheng at nanyang... then i was trying to call yenjean so that so could find them XDD but she didn't pick up la -.- then we managed to sucessfully trap yenjean and ariel in the staffroom with all the ri guys that were there -MAJOR smirk- teehees. hm... wonder what happened? nvm, i shall ask m.y. :DD

after beauty world, went home really... lethargic-ly. but looking out of the window at the nygh bus stop where a lot of hci and nygh girls were flirting was very entertaining XDD

i've been super lazy to blog these few days D:
haha nothing much to do nowadays... i'm reading fanfic to pass my time. or maybe i shall play neopets like i did in dec -.- i feel so sian lah, nothing to do...

oh well can't wait til gep meet tmrw! :D i'm going there at eleven coz I WANT MY SLEEP :P then we're going to buy amanda's present! :D

bye.

it never existed in the first place; self delusion hurts later.

sigh amanda not here today.. fever X: thank GOD its not swine flu manxc D:

yay watched ANGELS AND DEMONS today! :DD
it was SUPER nice la! XD
but there was this very gross scene where they show this guy with his EYEBALL cut off. it was... bloody, to say the least. BLEURGHH.
and it seriously cut out a LOT of stuff from the book lorh ): and it was super fast coz they had to cram everything into 2 hours. -sigh- oh well it still rocks (:
actually it's quite cool to see all the monuments, statues etc. i had no idea St Peter's Square was kinda.. circular. weird, i know. -.-
one weird thing: this swiss guard guy kinda looks like MALFOY from harry potter -.- so qi guai right. i think i should lay off the harry potter books for a while... oh which reminds me. HP 6 IS COMING OUT ON JULY 16!!!!! :DDDD

oh and before the movie, there was this trailer for 'drag me to hell', this SUPER SCARY movie. you know, the typical curse and demons stuff X:
then there was this VERY VERY FREAKY BIT DDD: hmm strangely i forgot what the bit was liao, but it was SUPER sudden lah O: then when i saw it i was like AAAAHH! fang was also very shocked but she gasped and i SCREAMED.

to boon;
thanks k (: bah i'm a born pessimist lah D:
gah COME ON MSN i wanna talk D: so bored la...
sigh i wish we were still in the same class lorh ):
and don't worry about cliches, they're cliche coz they've been used so many times (:

you know, if only it was so easy, if we did know how it would turn out.
damn those sweet memories;

open house ytd! :D
yeah this is a bit late but wtv (:

so i stupidly went there at 8.45am. i was like the FIRST in the classroom lah -.-
then i went down to foyer for batch meeting, which was cancelled D: so i went back to class.
THEN yanru told me i had to sign in at the parade square so we went down again D: but i got the super-nice pin though :DD
when i went back up to class liyin discovered that she forgot to take her pin when she signed in, plus fang forgot to sign in so we went down AGAIN. )):

before the cheers we did mass dance in class! XD suddy does it SUPER enthu-ly, like bouncing up and down a lot o.O it's super funny to watch (:
the first cheers were HORRIBLE. we were BAKING out there in the sun and i drank like half of fang's water XD so everytime there was a breeze we were super happy :D coz everyone was totally DRIPPING sweat. EURGH.
hehe edith sneaked off to change for strings then when we went back to class and saw her in her gown it was quite weird XD i can't really imagine her in home clothes leh. qi guai horh o.O

me and fang wanted to sneak into the kschee to watch strings but there were PSLs at the door so we didn't dare :/
so i went off to choir prac instead... then the sec 4s left halfway to go BUSKING :D so pro... i hope i'll be good enough to go busking next time (:

so our batch dashed off to the gallery and discovered that we were the EARLIEST sec ones there ): and shauna was doing her booths so i was the ONLY tarbetian there... :/ so i talked to the buckle choir ppl and basically TRIED very unsuccessfully to blend into the shawodws while waiting for a tarbet class to hide in. coz i'm SUPPOSED to arrive at the gallery with my class -guilty look-

then i left after the richard cheers coz OMG i LOVE the song they're using for their cheers k. so i stayed to listen to it :D then i met nanshan and we changed into our gowns in 111s changing rooms XD and it was SUPER sticky and hot and uncomfortable. eurghh. and my gown is like WAY too long for me DD: oh well at least it'll last til i'm sec 4 (:

and we were basically last minute freaking out and warming up before the performance... then ms loo was telling us to push up our glasses before going into the ks chee -.-

ave was really, really good; it was just... way better than i've heard it for a while. word game was a half-failure though, it went off pitch from the start. D: good thing the sops fixed it at the second bit XD haha amanda and cherlene and some other 110s went to watch! but i think amanda and cherlene didn't see me til the very end or something. and OMG. TAN WEE LEE was at the BACK of the ks chee. good thing he didn't see me XD

reflecting about our performance in the choir room was interesting, though the sec ones don't really have opinions -.- but one thing is right - chloe and zongmin, our conductors, are great (:

during lunch i had to spend $2.50 on nasi lemak coz someone ATE my lunch. GAHH. thank god they didn't make us pay for it lah D: so most of our batch all crowded in at this round table :DD and after i ate i went around to cca booths to get stickers (: i now have this rgschoir sticker on my wallet :DD

then we were slacking around for a while before restarting prac XD and clara was on the RAMPAGE. -screams and runs off- seriously she's SUPER scary k. O: she nearly KILLED my ribs DD:

and then.... we learnt LES MIS <333
the medley rocks so much (:

"Friendship is born at the moment when one person says to another,
'What! You too? I thought i was the only one!!'

i thought i finally found someone who understood.
who knows, it was a lie after all.

quiz. stiolen from gladys (:

[Relationship Status] single
[Parents still together] no
[Siblings] sis and bro
[Pets] none

FAVORITES
[Color] blue&green&purple
[Number] 9
[Animal] hm.. dog? or cat.
[Book] WAY too many :D check my likes list though (:
[Flower] erm. dunno.

DO YOU
[Have tattoos?] nope.
[Cheat on tests?] er. no. i don't wanna die yet, you know.
[Like roller coasters?] ok lah, but everytime i ride them i'm scared that the tracks will malfunction and we'll all die. yes, smart of me, i know -.-
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] not really. i love my home (:
[Like cleaning?] no D:
[Own a cell phone?] yeah. :D

CURRENT
[Current hair] wet. and not tied.
[Currently playing] how do you sleep by jesse mccartney.
[Last movie you saw] Knowing! XD
[last thing you ate] ice-cream (:
[Believe there is life on other planets?] maybe?
[Hate yourself?] DUH. you think.
[Collect anything?] postcards! but i kinda gave up liao la.
[Like your handwriting?] ok lah. but edith's is nicer XD and fang's is the WORST that i have EVER seen. D:

LOVE…
[First crush] i'm not THAT stupid to tell you.
[you believe in love at first sight?] no.
[you believe in "the one?"] maybe? no one's perfect anyway.

ARE YOU
[Sarcastic] sometimes
[Shy] when i'm feeling self-conscious.
[Talkative] when i'm with friends (:

WOULD YOU RATHER…
[Pierce your nose or belly button?] OUCH. ears are good enough, thanks -.-
[Be serious or funny?] funny. but this year i completely lost ANY bit of hu,our i had so i'll settle for being boring.

ARE YOU…
[Simple or complicated?] i'm VERY complicated. hell, i know myself for 13 years liao and i still don't understand myself.

ABOUT YOU..
[What time is it] 12.09am oops. D:
[Name] sinyee

WHAT DO YOU WANT…
[Where do you want to singapore
[How many kids do you want] 2?
[What kind of job do you want] something that requires me to use my BRAINS. basically not secretary work, etc la. :/
[Do you want to get married] maybe? if i can find the right guy.

UNIQUE..
[Are you double jointed] no. i'm bad at everything, including being flexible.
[Can you raise one eyebrow] no.
[Can you cross your eyes] no.
[Do you make your bed daily] not really D:

CLOTHES, ETC…
[Which shoe goes on first] whichever is nearer to me
[Ever thrown one at someone] i think?
[How Much money do you carry in your wallet] depends on when.

IN THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU…
[Bought something] food
[Gotten sick] no
[Sang] yup! we had a LOT of choir today leh -.-
[Felt stupid] DUH. i feel stupid everyday.
[Missed someone] yes
[Gotten drunk] no -.-
[Gotten high] no. i told you i'm very boring and super non-high.
[Danced crazy] no. ditto
[Gotten your hair cut] no.
[Watched cartoons] no.
[Lied to someone] not really.

IN THE LAST FEW DAYS WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT…
[Slept in your bed] me. duh -.-
[Saw you cry] i don't cry.
[Saw a movie with you] sister! i think.

HAVE YOU EVER…
[Been to California] yes
[Been to Europe] SLOVAKIA! :D
[Wished you were the opposite sex] no. duh.

HONESTLY…
[Honestly, whats on your mind right now?] many, many things.
[Honestly, what are you doing right now?] this question..?
[Honestly, what is your mood right now?] depressed.
[Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment?] who i was last year.
[Honestly, do you hate someone right now?] yeah.
[Honestly, do you like someone?] not really.

EVERYONE’S CONFESSIONS
[ ] I still watch cartoons on Saturdays.
[ ] I eat Froot Loops. (eurgh they taste HORRIBLE)
[ ] I go trick or treating. (i want SWEETS! heck, sugar will cheer me up now.)
[ ] I’ve taken a bubble bath in the last month. (i don't even have a BATH at home -.-)
[ ] I have water balloon fights with my friends
[ ] I still believe in Santa
[ ] Mommy’s still the coolest person ever
[ ] sleep till noon. (i WISH.)
[ ] I still pass out little Valentines day cards on Valentines Day.
[ ] The boy/girl that sits next to me is cute. (hm. bella IS cute, especially when shé's ANGRY, but not in THAT way. -.-)
[ ] I still drink apple juice. (orange tastes better! XD)
[ ] There are monsters in my closet. (i don't even HAVE a closet of my own.)
[ ] I can’t sleep with the lights off (i can sleep ANYWHERE. just ask any 111er)
[ ] I can’t sleep with the lights on.
[ ] I still like piggy back rides (whoever gave me a piggyback ride will need a ride to the spine doctor at SGH.)
[ ] Boys/girls still have cooties (huh?)

i shall go to sleep, and try to forget.

i need chocolate to cheer me up.
sigh edith not here today coz of gastric flu X: get well soon k.

during history ms teo was LATE then scolded ruthanne for not calling her early enough. D: wth lah. but we did our skit/posters XD
thalia's group was super funny! they did the parameswara skit thingy. then yi en as the sultan was damn funny lorh! :D and thalia's... moustache fell off halfway -.-
then our grou was last, it was supposed to be about some guy going to longyamen to look for elephants. -.- i was supposed to be the elephants so i used paper and zig ink to made myself this VERY weird-looking nose plus ears :/ then i stuck the elephant noseon my own nose with double sided tape so when i tried to take it off it HURT ALOT DD: and when yanru suddenly looked up and saw me she was like O: lol! XD
so during our performance it was SUPER improptu-ed and i ended up 'attacking' fang coz she was trying to catch me (the elephant). in the end she ended up dragging ME around the classroom instead. -.- then we got 9.5 and lexine's group got 9 but ms teo said we had too much SCREAMING (coz of the chasing elephants bit) so she ranked lexine's group 3rd in class instead ): sigh. but theirs was good lah, less crazy, and their props weren't so... WEIRD as ours :P

open house prac was weird. the ENTIRE sec one level crammed into the gallery, where it was dark/NO AIRCON/ very squished X: and tarbet's cheering was damn pathetic lah :/ richard was by far the loudest lorh. -.-

to do:
-pack gown&heels!

the smallest things i hang on to just crumble and fall. everything i thought i had just went down the drain one by one.

i'm so freaking BORED.

bio was fun, fang is OBSSESSED with a CERTAIN chem teacher :DD watch fang turn maroon! x)

oh and during recess they managed to turn on american idol on the tv in the canteen. then everyone was CHEERING LIKE MAD and rushed to gather around the tv. i saw this sec 4 prefect standing ON A CHAIR lah. o.O then everyone was waiting super-nervously. then they were like... the winner of the american idol 2009 (and basically drag one for a LOONG time) is... KRIS ALLEN! then everyone was like AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! O: then this teacher was standing on a chair and booing. OMG. weird manxc...

we got our lit and english PT back today X: our group got 31/40 for the lit PT, then english i forgot liao ): i did the WORST in my group for BOTH reflections DDD: damnit. i was so busy compiling, editing and decorating like mad that my reflection were crap. putting it effort doesn't even MAKE a difference.

choir was fun (: we sang this YIDDISH song then i was trying to translate the lyrics but couldn't understand a THING. -.- pris chew did the pronounciation for us XD i had no idea she did german lorh. i think azura does german too but not sure...
then we did this HORRIBLE jap song where all the altos did was sing 'za' and 'doke/doto' or wtv. -.- wuliao right?! D: i didnt even BOTHER to sing properly. infact, so did about half the choir. so the song.. floundered and ms loo gave up after abt 5 tries :D
re-did ave and word game, word game really improved loads coz the seniors showed up (:

then mich and wanyii were looking at some advert, and i was like; oh the person -points to ad- looks familiar...? and they were like HAHAHAHA -.- turned out it was en-ting la. coz the ad was for some SUPER pro piano-recital thingy. o.O

then we had open house briefing! XD
sigh hope next year i can get a booth shift... (: only 8 seniors per batch get to have a shift ):
hmph hopefully can go for choir before house prac tmrw XD then on sat we're chionging STRAIGHT from the second house cheers to the choir room, then we change into GOWN AND JACKET, no less. bah i wish we can wear black pants lorh... ): oh well fang will be WAY too busy with philo booth to come laugh at me -sticks out tongue-

i just need you to hear me. or was i just the fool to think that you had ever listened in the first place;

got back lit & history & chem today.
i am so disappointed in myself. i spent the most time mugging for CHEM and i BARELY PASSED. and my history was damn crappy. lit was better than i expected, i guess.

i NEED to stop sleeping in class. shall ask my mom for nescafe tomorrow... AND ask bella to pinch/poke me to KEEP AWAKE. plus i MUST NOT sleep in bio D:
i still have history worksheet left, i need to get the ppt from the class comp coz i slept through it DD:

german test was quite bad coz i forgot 25% of what i revised on the weekend. damnit.

i can't afford to screw up everything.

at least today i realised i'm not going crazy after all. edith is very nice to talk to (:

sometimes there's simply nothing left to say;

i love the love story + viva la vida song... it's amazingly calming and still sounds really nice (:
here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zkQqXO_OFYY

my sister is having a stupid attitude problem now. :/
she never studies properly, came home with 60+ marks for ALMOST EVERY SUBJECT then still fb and sms like mad the day before exams. now that she got her grades, my mom is mad and cofiscated her phone; and my grandma isn't helping by rubbing salt EVERYWHERE.
i mean she's forever trying to turn our mom against us lah. when she's scolding us, her voice goes really loud and everything and she accuses you of everything under the sun. then when my mom comes to ask questions, she goes all demure, sits on the sofa and accuse people.
then my stupid sister also doesn't want to listen to me. i try to help her by telling her to study properly, she just doesn't listen and cry all day. UGHH.

and then there's some things that i simply don't know how to fix. i really wish i can, but i don't want to make things worse.

plus i still have history AND german to mug. damnit.

DON'T REMIND ME ABOUT MY GERMAN SEMESTERTEST.
or else.

gahh don't wanna mug leh X: i wanna SLEEP. and today i MUST sleep earlier lah. i keep dozing off in school... i slept through bio coz ms hou was helping her RS group CULTURE BACTERIA in the lab o.O

back to choir ((:
clara and daniella were fighting over a soft toy before choir then when daniella snatched it away clara CRIED. o.O ok it was FAKE but damn scary ehh! D:
we spent ONE HOUR learning ALLELUJA by MOZART. NINE PAGES of the SAME FOUR SYLLABLES. in my opinion, mozart should TOTALLY stick to piano :/ the alto part is quite boring and very messy coz we kept forgetting our note D: good thing tabi can kinda remember it so i just listen to her XD
re-did word game and it was... really horrible. the altos were DYING coz en-ting and varsha were both gone, so only amanda yim was hear-able. -.- and i kept forgetting to do the onn thing after the very high BERROOOO thingy. i know it doesn't make sense unless you're in choir but i don't care :D
ave was better, we sang it quite a few times, then the last time we stood in two circles, closed our eyes and sang (: it sounded really nice at the last time lah XD
and a lot of admin stuff...
hopefully sec ones can perform this time lahh! if we can't sing because of the MASS DANCE... X: since we have two house cheer performances anyways. plus you can't really miss 15 people out of 370+ sec ones :D
AND. we're having a choir exchange. with RI CHOIR.
AAAAHH NOOOOOOOOOO DDDDD:
-screams for a LOONG while-
like WHAT THE HELL?! and chloe was super funny lah! she managed to insult them dunno how many times (: she was like; i know they're all weird... HAHAHA XD and she's convinced that we're SCARED of them. EURGH MY FOOT. it's just that i erm, don't exactly LOOK FORWARD to seeing the nyps ri choir ppl X:

need to mug, plus i have maths coefficients and temperature calculation to do ):
bye~~

230th post.

2.4 today DDD:
it wasn't as bad as i expected really, seeing that i didnt slip and fall/die of a heart attack. yup, that's me the pessimist.
i missed A by FIVE. DAMNED. SECONDS.
-screams for a LOOOONG time-
much better now (:

today oneeleven spent our free blocks BLASTING celebration through the speakers and doing the mass dance. XD
and i got many wonderful opportunities to poke fang! :D

...we got our maths paper back.
i got 29/38 )):
why the hell did i slack so damned much D: but it's too late to do anything... :/

gtg, i have to catch up on my HORRIBLE backlog of work D:
drama journal, PLUS a LOT of maths wb qns, and history AND geog. D:
bye.

nothing good ever lasts; just that now it flies away a whole lot more quickly.

your pretence is confusing. when you're nice, is it really the real or the fake side? i'm the only one that cares, you stopped a long time ago.

today was so fun ((:

I DONT WANT TO FINISH MY MATHS WB DD:

i think you're right. it is different, and i do prefer it this way, you know. and that kind of makes all the difference. maybe that wasn't what i wanted, i just took my time to realise it.

ONEELEVEN WON THE RELAYYY!
we rock so much manxc ♥
thalia's super fast lah, she helped us overtake the buckle class XD

bah gtg, bye!

happy birthday thalia!
she got this REALLY REALLY cute bunny from mary. :D freaky right, mary giving soft toys. like the evil queen giving out poisoned apples. ehh no offence or anything...

aah inter-class relay tmrw :/
hope we can WIN! we have thalia, a super pro sprinter anyways (: our runners are thalia, ruthanne, nicole, siyan, me, fang, liyin. good luck guys!

went to orchard with edith and fang!
we ate at macs, then went to borders and kalm's at taka to loom at stuff (:

bye!

i'll make every second count;

no choir tmrw :/
but i like tues/thurs prac more anyways :D somebody guess why.

needlework was fun! (:
we worked on our puch again.. i VERY VERY VERY STUPIDLY decided to use the embroidery machine thingy. WAAAAY bad idea. the freaking thing nearly tore a hole through my pouch TWICE. and this whole LUMP of thread got tangled up, so i nearly killed my machine trying to remove my pouch. thank god i didn't kill it, repairing that machine would have cost my allowance for the YEAR. or the next year too.
and the hearts that the machine produced looked damn screwed lah. they're LOPSIDED and of DIFFERENT SIZES. even though its done by a freaking MACHINE. i should learnt to leave things as they are, seriously.
hehe handstitching was cool la. me yanru and ruthanne sitting there and talking non-stop :D
AND THE DAMNED PURPLE EMBROIDERY THREAD REFUSED TO GO THROUGH MY NEEDLE. i broke my needle threader trying to thread it, rebecca broke yanru's while trying to help :/ in the end i switched back to red and it worked perfectly the first time round -.-
then bio! we watched the intro to bio movie and it was creepy but cool (: omg i HATED watching those ants though. it makes my skin CRAWL and i feel like puking when i see them. bleurgh.

i need to finish my maths ws but i left it at home -.- i'm at my dad's place now lah...
so i'm off to play sims! :DDD
bye!

maybe you've simply become a really minor priority to them; maybe they just paid attention in the past because they had no other distractions then.

i hate second guessing.

i'm suffering from choir withdrawal symptoms )):
can't wait til open house.
tsp! <3

to the right left;

freedommm!

lit was scribbling like mad in one hour and feeling like i want to strangle algernon.
chem was.. crap.
geog was decent i guess, but i'm going to fail anyway.

but now we're free!
except i have this GIGANTIC german test next week. damn.

re-skinning! (:
dear cherlene helped me find this one. THANKS! :D

bye~

today really woke me up and put things into perspective.

MY TEETH ACHE.damn that DAMNED dentist.
my grandma and sister are outside watching michelle chia and shaun chen's wedding now -.-

and i should REALLY REALLY be doing my geog/chem, but KPT is like a boulder, threatening to crush my head.

I WANT TO BONK CHARLIE ON THE HEAD. maybe that would FINALLY straighten out his cerebal cortex... wait i think i've been reading too much FFA.

i'm falling behind on birthday notices so here goes:
happy birthday mary!
happy birthday shauna!
happy birthday liran!
happy birthday nanshan!
happy birthday grace k!
and many many more, i can't remember :/

i've been such an oversensitive idiot. ignore my previous post, it never happened ok?

you know there's a difference;
some people actually care about you.

i hate feeling inadequate for the thousandth time in the day, not being good at anything, feeling so... useless.
i hate it when my sister and i argue, and she accuses me of being "perfect" when deep down inside i know this is totally the opposite, that she will turn out way better than she knows. she has everything - brains, looks, leadership, humour, confidence, friends, talent. i envy her, because she's found her own place, because she'll become someone i want to be.
i hate it that everything is falling apart, going wrong right now but nothing i do seems to be able to fix anything.
i hate being stuck in this maze, with no way out. what's the point of stupid, typical things like self-injury or commiting suicide or wtv if they don't even make a difference? not that i'll do something like that, duh.
i hate having too much time to think; because i just end up doubting myself for the thousandth time, not knowing if anything i do is right.
i hate it when i think too much, about things that don't really matter because who would actually bother?
i hate being so boring and awkward, not knowing what to do every minute of the day. thats why i like being alone, because no one can judge you and i can do whatever i feel like without second-guessing all the time.
i hate the way i turned out. i used to be someone that was high and hyper, not exactly very nice but interesting at least. now i'm just some really boring person in a corner, invisible most of the time unless you need a favour from me.
i hate knowing that this will probably be the way my life will be, i just have to get used to it.
i hate myself for being me.

studied chem (:
now i only have this whole PILE of geog left. plus a LOT of kinetic particle theory. and i'm pretending that lit totally doesn't exist.
messed up, isn't it? and i'm SUPER hungry, only had a fried egg and rice for dinner coz it's VESAK DAY, which means i'm supposed to eat vegetarian food. AND my dad's place doesn't have vegetarin food; plus that curry chicken looks SUPER tempting -.-
back to geog :/

to you:
i'm so, so sorry for the way i've been treating you. i was mad at you, selfishly blaming you for my own stupid problems. and i somehow managed to convince myself that what i was doing was right, taking it out on you would solve everything; when i was just being a total idiot. and i know i've been really mean and horrible to you, and i'm really sorry for it.
thank you for staying; for being endlessly patient with me.

pfffttt. D:
i missed A for SBJ by ONE CM. and i deteoriated by 20cm O: i jumped 187 last year lah.
damn.
hehe congrats fang, she got 10.1 for shuttle run! o.O and a lot of ppl like edith and siyan jump super far for SBJ. XD but IPU was crap la, ppl just DIED. yanru and siyan did 17 though. super pro right. :D i scraped 13, just a B then dropped liao. X: lol boon jumped 150cm with her injured knee... ouch. well at least she just made it with a C. congrats! :D
ms syahidah's last day today ): she took a pic with us, and we drew this big thing on the board (: then we went through assignment 1, and watched youtube vids! we watched shrek trailers and some thingy about this suicidal dog. and it was actually a bridgestone tyres ad -.- oh and we watched CHARLIE THE UNICORN. -.- super weird la but quite funny XD and the dove advertisement thingy too...
lol mas selamat FINALLY captured. this is like the first time i saw such GIGANTIC headlines lorh. they devoted the entire front page to him lorh -.-
sigh mugged chem just now... at least i've done 2/3 of seperation techniques, and acids & alkalis. chem SPA today, was... ok i guess. and if i say anymore i'll get killed D:

the problem with swimming is that i get way too much time to think, because it's just plain, boring old me underwater.

it's called a first impression because it's one and only. once it's over, it's gone forever. and the agonizing thing is wondering how things might just have turned out instead of this current mess. maybe if i got a chance to redo everything, where would i be? i know living with regrets is pointless, but i simply just can't let go. i'm going to try though, or else everything is going to get a hell of a lot worse.
once i thought that you guys would be there to cushion my fall, but now i think i'm just going to tumble straight onto those sharp, treacherous rocks instead.
please give me the strength to survive this, like i survived psle last year; and to change things. because every year has its rough patches, and whining about it simply doesn't help. although when we look back to those days, all we remember is the great times, it all lingers below the surface, somewhere.
i'm going to try, one day at a time. most likely it won't work, i'll just sink even furthur. but let me try to do things for once, instead of say it all the time, like i always do. how many times have i said i'll work on it, i'll start tomorrow?
just don't give up, coz if you do it's really the end for me.

because sometimes it just hurts.

you know what? you are REALLY good at pretending. why didn't i see this before? and i actually believed you.

i'm just sick of it all. why do i even bother to care? why did i even think you were my friend in the first place. or maybe i'm simply seeing too much again. i really, really hope that it's true, you know.

i will NOT let this drag me down. lesson one.

quizzes to randomly waste my time :D

A is for Amanda Lee(comma, space) Jiaqi
1) Do you love this person? no but she's a really great friend (:
2) Is this person your enemy? no, but we used to hate each other in P5. WEIRD I KNOW. but i was damn irritating then anyways -.-
3) Would you hug this person? yeah. GROUP HUG! :D

B is for Bianche Lim
1) What do you really think of this person? nice (: but i don't really know her very well.
2) What’s their favorite color? idk
3) Ever danced with them? no

C is for Chloe Pawa
1) What do you think of this person? quite nice! and mostly patient with us sec ones and our crappy technicals (no offence to my batchies who can actually SING -.-)
2) How far does this person live? idk
3) How old are they? 16

D is for Daniella Low
1) How long have you known him/her? 5 months (:
2) Do you like this person? yup! :D
3) Do you hate this person? no -.-

E is for Elizabeth Lim
1) Have you met their parents? no.
2) Worst thing about this person? uh. addicted to coffee? well thats not really bad lah.
3) Best thing about this person? nice and her funny editing on ms teo's ppts! XD

F is for Fang aka Liu Fangzhou
1) Have you ever dated this person? NO WAY. though she HAS proposed MANY MANY times. (IT WAS A JOKE IN CASE YOU DON'T KNOW HER. i'm SO not les. -.-)
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? tomorrow.
3) Do you go to school with them? yeah DUH.

G is for Gladys Yeo
1) Have you heard this person sing? yep! :D
2) What's his/her pet's name? she doesn't have a pet. i think.
3) Will he/she repost this? hope so? (:

H is for Ho Yi En
1) What grade are they in? sec 1
2) Is he/she your best friend? no
3) Ever done something illegal witth this person? uh.. don't think so?

I is for -I CAN'T THINK OF ANYONE D:-
1) What is this persons favorite food?
2) How did you meet this person?
3) Do you trust this person?

J is for June Ngian
1) They have any siblings? i THINK?
2) Do you know their favorite song? no
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? we're NOT les. -.-

K is for Koh Shamen
1) How old were you when you first met? 12, we met in tll XD
2) Do you like him/her as a friend? yes
3) Would you go to DisneyWorld with this person? ok i guess.

L is for Lee Yun Wen
1) Is this person older than you? yup, she's born in Feb -.-
2) Is this person single? yes
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? everyday school day in class

M is for Mich Wang
1) How old were you when you first met? 12. GAH I'M NOT 13 YET D:
2) Whats his/hers pets name? mich/michwamg? -.-
3) Ever danced with this person? no

N is for Nicolette Foo
1) How old were you when you first met the person? 9, in P3 :D
2) Do you like this person? yup. batchmate!
3) What would you do if you had never met this person? í'd have one less batchmate ):

O is for -I CAN'T THINK OF ANYONE EITHER-
1) Are you related?
2) Could you live with this person?
3) What school do they go to?

P is for Phua Qi Qi
1) Have you been to the mall with this person? no
2) How about a sleepover with them? no. i don't really know her very well...
3) Does this person have a job? uh. rgschoir member? (: and sop1 SL. and vice head prefect.

Q is for Daphne Quek
1)Are you related? yeah, in the RGSCHOIR FAMILY ♥
2)Do you like this person? yup!
3) Would you do anything for him/her? uh. to some reasonable extent, yes.

R is for Reetaza Chatterjee
1) Have you heard this person sing? yup!
2) Will she/he repost this? no.
3) When does this person look best? uh. in the raffles jacket she always wears? XD

S is for Sarah Tham
1) Is this person taller than you? nope XD
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? yeah
3) Is this person your friend? duh!

T is for Tan Yan Ru
1) What grade is this person in? sec 1
2) Would you hug this person? yup (:
3) Do they live close to you? nope, she lives 30 mins away from my house -.- i know coz i went there for lit fa!

U is for... -dunno-

V is for Varsha R (ramalama!)
1) Would you do anything for him/her? to a reasonable extent
2) Do you consider them a friend? uh, ok i guess.
3) Have you met any of his/her family? no

W is for Wee Yen Jean
1) Is this person loud or quiet? LOUDDD :D
2) Have you seen this person dance? nah.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black. -.-

Y is for Yang Jia Yee
1) How old were you when you first met this person? 2. she's my younger sister -.-
2) What do you think of this person? funny and nice and a GREAT sister but damn annoying at times. D:
3) Have you heard this person sing? yeah

Z is for Zhang Boyu
1) Does this person have msn? yup
2) What is their favorite sport? she doesn't like sports -.- unless it involves drawing manga?
3) When did you last see this person? today XD

finally done! here's another one (:

1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
i think you need some medicine yourself.

2. Do you trust all of your friends?
depends on the friend

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
maybe. if i really love him.

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeah

5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
huh?

6. Which one of your friends/family do you think would make the best doctor?
my mom! coz she IS a doctor -.-

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
no. i'm not.. paranoid.

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
yeah

10. What's your most favorite scar?
my wart/scar XD coz its special! though ppl keep asking me what is it.

11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
a few weeks ago to malaysia? no time to drive to penang AND get there in time for my great-uncle's funeral mah.

12. What did the last text message you sent say?
smth to yanru about chem spa

13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
uh. dunno.

14. Fill in the blank. I love:
RGSCHOIR :D

15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
NOT FAIL MY MYAS.

16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
family. and friends.

17. How many kids do you want to have?
a few.

18. Would you make a good parent?
dunno.

19. Where was your profile picture taken?
photobucket.

20. Whats your middle name?
none.

21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
SAs on tuesday which i REALLY need to mug for. D:

22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
SO MANY THINGS.

23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
wait til i find someone i actually WANT to marry plus hold on for... 20+ years?

24. What are you wearing right now?
mu oldest tee, which i FOREVER seem to be wearing everytime i do a quiz which asks me this, and shorts.

25. Righty or Lefty?
righty (:

26. Best place to eat?
at home except when my grandma's cooking vegetarian food

27. Favorite jeans?
a pair of... -drumroll- JEANS!

28. Favorite animal?
dunno.

29. Favorite juice?
orange

30. Have you had the chicken pox?
no. i think?

31. Have you had a sore throat?
last week, when i had the flu -.-

32. Ever had a bar fight?
no i'm WAY underaged to get into a bar -.-

33. Who knows you the best?
myself. and even i don't know very well.

34. Shoe size?
6/7 i guess

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
glasses

36. Ever been in a fight with your pet.
i dont have a pet. and NOBODY fights with their pet. unless you count fang and google the dog.

37. Been to Mexico?
no. SWINE FLU, YO.

38. Did you buy something today?
green pen.

39. Did you get sick today?
no.

40. Do you miss someone today?
yeah.

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
no.

42. When is the last time you had a massage?
ages ago. i only like back massage, and only when i have this HORRIBLE backache.

43. Last person to lie in your bed?
myself. or my sister.

44. Last person to see you cry?
idk.

45. Who made you cry?
nobody, it was just some stupid regrets.

46. What was the last TV show you watched?
idk

47. What are your plans for the weekend?
studyyyy )):

48. Who do you think will re-post this?
dunno.

49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
family

50. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
wait for 20 years -.-

yet another one.

90 Questions.
90. First off, what is your name?
sinyee

89. What did you do last night?
maths homework WHICH I DIDN'T EVEN NEED TO DO, sleep, blog.

88. Do you have a best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
no. really good friends, yes :D

87. Do you have any siblings?
one younger sis and bro

86. How many years apart is your mom and dad?
0

85. Do you like someone?
yeah.

84. What does the 7th message in your text inbox say?
smth from yr about SS prelims -.-

83. Who sits beside you in maths?
Belinda XD

82. Where is your dad right now?
dunno. coming to pick us up?

81. Do you burn incense?
yeah, when i go to the temple.

80. Do you have a problem?
who doesn't?

79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
my mom i think.

78. Closest purple object?
some pic behind the computer

79. Closest silver object?
printer

76. Closest yellow object?
smth on my shirt

75. Do you sing in the shower?
yup :D

74. What is bugging you right now?
exams.. D:

73. How does your hair look right now?
not tied up?

72. Do you know all the words to the Star Spangled Banner?
no. i'm not american -.-

71. When was the last time you said the pledge of allegiance?
never. see above -.-

70. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
nobody.

69. Do you have any fears?
yeah.

68. What do you hear right now?
my sis talking

67. Do you like kangaroos?
ok lorh

66. Can you roll your tongue?
yup!

65. What are you wearing?
tshirt, shorts

64. Who was the last person to message you?
yanru

63. Do you like emo kids?
uhm. depends on how emo.

62. Screamo or Country?
country. i WANT my eardrums you know.

61. Rock or Rap?
rock. i like being ABLE to hear what the singer is saying -.-

60. Polka or Disco?
NEITHER D:

59. Flying or Driving?
haven't tried driving... but both are ok (:

58. Who last called you?
forgot -.-

57. Was your Valentine's day nice?
it was... normal -.-

56. What are you doing now?
this quiz? and slacking off a LOT of stuff D:

55. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
no one.

54. Would you die for someone?
yes

53. Would you date anyone from your work?
no.
1. i dont work.
2. i'm in a GIRLS school D:

52. Do long distance relationships work?
no.

51. Do you have any pet peeves?
huh?

50. Do you have to pee right now?
no. -.-

49. When did you last talk to one of your siblings?
right now

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
school

47. Do you worry about getting older?
no. i WANT to be 13! :D

46. Have you ever had an ingrown toenail?
no

45. Do you pick your scabs?
yup XD thats how i got my wart -.-

44. Ever drink your blood?
err. i'm NOT a vampire, even though my teeth look like it.

43. Do your bandaids have cartoons on them?
uh. idk.

42. Do you bite your nails?
no. but i peel them abut sometimes.

41. Do you wax your eyebrows?
NO.

39. Do you check CelebPox.com for celebrity gossip?
no -.-

38. Do you have a jar where you keep your loose change?
no. it's called a WALLET. or a piggybank.

37. Do you own a pogo stick?
no?! it's from the 1960s or smth lah -.-

36. Ever gone a whole day without eating?
no. i LOVE to eat!

35. Do you own ripped jeans?
yeah.

34. What makes you mad?
look in my profile.

33. What would you do if you found out that you were adopted?
uh. confused?

32. Are you jealous a lot of the time?
yeah. -.-

31. Do you use a calendar or day planner to schedule everything on?
notebook + calendar

30. Are you OCD?
no.

29. Do you have ADD?
no.

28. Do you have low self esteem?
DUH you think.

27. Who can make you laugh during the hardest time?
some random funny things?

26. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
idk

25. When was the last time you had professional pictures taken?
january in school?

24. Have you done a whitening treatment on your teeth?
no. the dentist is WAY too busy fixing my freaky teeth.

23. What is your favorite movie?
too many (:

22. Who do you love?
look in my profile, i'm WAY too tired to type anymore. maybe 3 quizzes at a time was NOT a good idea.

21. What is playing on your MP3 player right now?
nothing

20. What holiday is your birthday closest to?
National Day! NINE JULY -hinthint-

19. What's your favorite drink?
sprite

18. Do you own any big sunglasses?
no. i dont WEAR sunglasses.

17. Bed sheet color?
purple (:

16. Ever encountered a shark?
no, thank god.

15. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
no.

14. Have you ever bungee jumped?
no. amd i'm not sure if i want to.

13. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
plaza sing (:

12. What's the first thing you notice about the same sex?
any obvious features

11. Is it hard to express your feelings to someone?
yeah, kinda.

10. Why are people such self-centered beings?
because we're human.

9. Are you sad?
nope. just very mad at myself for MAJORLY SLACKING D:

8. Are you happy?
kinda?

7. Favorite day of the year?
NINE JULY! hm.. haven't you heard it SOMEWHERE before? (psst. check out Q20 if you're blur)

6. Have you ever licked someone's cheek?
NO?!

5. Watched all Spiderman movies?
nah. i hate spiderman.

4. What are you looking forward to?
after SAs!

3. Favorite Lucky Charms Marshmallow?
?

2. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
on holiday, when it was cheaper than getting 3 taxis for my GIGANTIC family.

1. Do you want to get married?
yeah, in the future.

STILL another one...

How much are you worth?
Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[x] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other-$75

Total: $15

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $65

Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $200
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $175
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $150
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $75
[ ] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $85
[x]Below 5'4" - $0 (OI SO UNFAIR!)

Total so far: $65

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100 (racist ageist.)

Total so far: $165

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[ ] First born - $120
[ ] Second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] Third born - $550
[ ] Fourth born - $300
[ ] Fifth born - $400
[ ] Sixth born -$215

Total so far: $185

Drink?
[x] I did like once - $400 (ON HOLIDAY, THE TOUR GROUP WENT TO SOME WINERY -.-)
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: $585

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $400
[ ] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[x] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Total so far: $535

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[ ] 7 to 10 - $500
[x] Under 7- $450

Total so far: $985

Favorite Colors (four):
[x] Green-$750
[ ] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[x] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ]Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ]Other - $500

Total: $ 1325
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes - $0
[x] Nope - add $1000
[ ] some- $750

Final total : $2325 OI so little?! haha jkjk lah.

ANOTHER ONE

What do you have:
[X] Mother
[X] Father
[ ] Step-father
[ ] Step-mother
[ ] Step-sister
[ ] Step-brother
[X] Brother/s
[ ] Brother-in-law
[X] Sister/s
[ ] Sister-in-law
[ ] Half sister
[ ] Half brother
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[X] Mobile phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[ ] Own room (I WISH!!!)
[ ] Have/had a swimming pool
[ ] Have/had a hot tub
[ ] Guest room
[X] Living Room
[X] Own computer
[ ] Own TV

Total so far: 7

[ ] Full size/Queen bed
[ ] More than 8 pairs of shoes
[X] MP3 player/iPod
[ ] PS2/3
[ ] Nintendo DS or PSP or 64
[X] Gameboy/Advance
[ ] Gamecube
[ ] Xbox/Xbox 360
[ ] Wii
[X] Your own laptop

Total so far: 10

[ ] Basketball net/hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Football table

Total so far: 10

[ ] Night stand
[ ] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom/portable (i don't even have a ROOM)

Total so far: 10

[x] Go shopping at least once a week
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[x] AIM/MSN
[x] Camera on phone

Total so far: 13

[ ] Go cart/car/quad
[ ] Guitar/drums/bass guitar
[X] Piano/keyboard
[ ] Any other instrument
[X] Been on a cruise
[X] Traveled out of the continent
[ ] Had a personal trainer
[ ] Expensive jewelery
[X] Met a celebrity (i met fiona xie in best denki -.-)

Total so far: 17

[ ] Straightener/curling iron
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now in your pocket/wallet
[ ] Credit card or atm card or debit card or bank card
[ ] Have a TV in your room
[ ] Mirror in your room

Total so far: 17

[X] Window in your room
[ ] Been to Paris
[ ] Been to Rome
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to Mexico (SWINE FLU.)
[ ] Been to Jamaica

Total so far: 18

[X] Parents have a car
[ ] Have owned or own a jet ski/boat
[ ] Have/had a camper
[X] Been to 3+ states (if it's in US, then yeah)
[X] 80+ buddies on Facebook/MySpace (99! just ONE more...)

Total so far: 21

[X] Home cooked meal almost everyday
[X] Been in a limo (on holiday, coz it was cheaper than hiring 3 taxis for my GIGANTIC family)
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[X] Own a camera
[X] Have been to Disneyland

Total: 25

[ ] Have/had a dog
[ ] Have/had a cat
[ ] Have/had a bird
[ ] Have/had a snake
[ ] Have/had a turtle
[X] Have/had any other pet (fish that died VERY soon D:)

Total: 26

Post as:
1-25 = Ghetto! (and tag 5 people)
26-40 = Average Teen! (and tag 10 people)
41-50 = Spoiled TEEN! (and tag 15 people)
51+ = Upper Class Snob! (and tag 20 people)

ok. SERIOUSLY REALLY LAST ONE.

Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as “My Autobiography” … And use your own answers, not anyone else’s.

1.Where did you take your profile pic?
photobucket

2.What exactly are you wearing right now?
old tshirt and shorts

3.What is your current problem?
cant get myself to study. and i NEED TO STUDY.

4.What makes you happy most?
friends (:

5.What’s the name of the song that you’re listening to?
like whoa by aly and AJ. my sis is listening lah -.-

7.Name someone with the same birthday as you?
fang's dad -.-

8.Ever sang in front of a large audience?
RGSCHOIR :D

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
no. DUH.

10.Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
sometimes. i like watching spongebob squarepants, for some bizarre reason -.-

11. Do you speak any languages?
english&chinese&german :D

12. Has anyone you’ve been close with passed away?
not close...

13.Do you ever watch MTV?
no

14.What’s something that really annoys you?
SO MANY THINGS

Chapter 1:
===============
1.Middle name:
none

2.Nickname(s):
cindy (seriously even the needlework teacher calls me that! XD), cindoi, CINDERELLA D:

3.Current location:
home.

4.Eye color:
black.

Chapter 2:
===============

1.Do you live with your parents:
duh -.-

2.Do you get along with your parents?
yeah

3.Do you have any Siblings?:
a sis and bro

Chapter 3: Favorites
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1. Ice Cream:
vanilla, chocolate, cookies&cream, cookie dough

2. Season:
winter

3. Shampoo/conditioner:
as long as it works, i dont mind.

Chapter 4: Do You..
===============
1.Dance in the shower?
no. i don't want to get a CONCUSSION you know.

2.Do you write on your hand?
yup :D my hand now has "library books" and "green pen refill" written on it with pink zig XD

3. Call people back:
yeah

4. Believe in love:
yup

5. Any bad habits?
WAY too many. i'm lazy, jealous, stupid, oversensitive, boring and impulsive.

7. Any mental health issues?
yeah DUH.

Chapter 5: Have You..
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1.Broken a bone:
yeah, right ankle last year ONE DAY BEFORE PSLE LC o.O

2.Sprained stuff:
my right wrist

3.Had physical therapy:
no

4. Gotten stitches:
no

5.Taken painkillers:
panadol, duh.

6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling:
no.

7.Been stung by a bee:
nope. THANK GOD.

8.Thrown up at the dentist:
yeah, they stuck this GIGANTIC MOULD with a LOT of cold, slimey clay inside my mouth. i gagged and everything came up.. i was SIX. -.-

9.Sworn in front of your parents:
yeah. damn only lah -.-

10. Had detention:
no.

11.Been called a Player/ Hoe:
?

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last
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1.Movie(s)?
knowing! and marley&me at home.

2.Three people to text you:
yanru, edith, uncle

3.Person you called?
mom

4.Person you hugged:
amanda

5.Person you tackled?
?!

6. Person you talked to on Msn?
batchmates! daphne, tabi, nicolette. oh and zongmin..

7.Thing you touched?
the keyboard -.-

8. Thing you ate?
rice

9. Thing you drank?
water.

10.Thing you said:
uh. smth on msn lorh.

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID SIX QUIZZES.
now i REALLY need to mug. BYE!

today was good (: FINALLY.
PE, we hung around waiting for mrs anis to show up then we did some PFT briefing and learnt the kettlestand! lol it took me so long to learn how to do it -.- then i was standing on my head, then rebecca was also standing on her head behind me then i was laughing my head off while trying not to fall off XD
chinese was reading my chinese magazine thingy for the FIRST TIME IN THE YEAR. and trying to escape doing my debate thingy :D
aesthetics made a drawstring pouch! (: it looks super prettyyy.
ack i'm trying to stalk senior's blogs, change my skin AGAIN, msn with batchies and (supposedly) do my geog all at once. obviously it doesn't work -.-
bye~!

today was majorly horrible.
two bad days in a row should NOT be allowed.
i'm seriously considering shutting this blog down, and starting one that only i'll know about. there's no point in blogging since no one ever reads this, and i can just hear you guys thinking UGH THIS IS SO BORING. i can't even blog properly. there's something wrong with me. why can't i ever do anything well?

from tomorrow i'm going to try to be more cheerful. moping isn't helping, i seriously need to do something about it.

why do i even bother? blame myself for being stupid and oversensitive, for being too conceited and believing that someone actually cared. i hate myself. i hate my life. i hate being stuck here, and not being able to change anything. anyway what difference would it make. everything concerning me always goes wrong. haven't you noticed? i thought i might actually be happy, things might be fine for once. turned out it just took a longer time to spring the surprise on me. it's just so hard to pretend that everything's fine when it's not. i really need to learn that soon; figure how to not care and simply walk away. because if i don't sooner or later it's going to get way worse when everything simply collapses right on top of me.

it's never getting better is it.

great. yet another thing i am failing - german. if i continue this way, i think i'd better drop out by november. no point wasting my mom's money on sec 2 books anyway.
gah i ache all over from 2.4 ytd. now my legs feel dead.
and my sister puked 3 times today plus had a horrible headache, so in the afternoon my grandma freaked out and dragged her plus the entire family to the A&E at KKH. turned out its just some normal illness... phew.

maybe you had a point there.
maybe it's just coz i'm the limit.

whoever decided my luck was having a very bad day then. i try to tell myself its part of fate or whatever, everything was already planned. or could one simple decision have changed everything right from the absolute beginning?

someday i'll look back at this without feeling like i'm falling back inside. but i highly doubt that's ever going to happen anytime soon.

i seriously think i'm losing my mind.

back from 2.4 (:
basically i died. gahh. i want a B lah! damn. haiz got 15mins.. D:
i didn't know it was possible to sweat AFTER a shower o.O
and i just recovered from that stitch in my gut which feels like an open wound. :/

anyway i shall not let napfa spoil my blogging mood, haha.
english, maths and history today. it was ok actually... made careless mistakes in maths. GAH.
then came home, did very little geog and chem, then slacked from 5 onwards (:
haha me, nicolette, daphne, tabi, gladys had this big batch msn session :D

rgschoir batchmates rock! ♥ we've already planned out our next two meets :D
argh i have this fb quiz that i NEED TO DO BEFORE IT GROWS MOULD. -.- ok thats lame, wtv. heehee just cleared my contacts! (:

off to sleep, bye!

i need a little good luck to get me by this time;

i know this sounds like i'm speaking to myself. UGHHH. anyway, i'm SO not.

you don't have to be better, or be like them. you're YOU. and that's the greatest compliment anyone could give you, seriously. better to be yourself, than some watered down photocopy of anyone else. because who we all like is you - your strong AND your weak points. perhaps to you they may seem better, in one way or another, but everyone has fault lines, it just depends on how well you hide them. maybe they just do that better than you. but you can try.
and as for what you were asking me, this basically answers the whole question doesn't it? i know you might not believe it, but trust me, it's the truth.

and now i've got to run 2.4km D: bye!

i feel so... lazy. i totally shouldn't even be HERE.

my dad's moving house and everything's all over the place. good thing there's internet! :D

ugh i'm dead for history, my inferences and LORMS or wtv is seriously crappy. and i'm going to fail english lah. i can't write AT ALL, especially under stress. so byebye, 3.6 gpa... not that i expected much of it in the first place but ohwell.

ok. BACK TO WORK. still havr to face english and history....

jiayous everyone for tomorrow! bye D:

I WANT CHOCOLATE. or ice cream.

:D

watched knowing! it ROCKED (: then i came home, slept a bit then revised history ): i only did 3 hours of work... gah. oh well at least i only have archaeology left to revise for history.. maths i have everything plus 3 papers, and english i have to read through my notes...

tomorrow i REALLY can't slack. i shall ban myself from the computer. D: in fact, i'm locking myself out of the computer til monday afternoon.

ack i have this weird sore throat now, so my singing is even crappier than usual. but ohwell, no one's in the room with me, so i sing anyway. i love singing too much to care. :D

HAHAHA :D on fb yesterday i saw someone's status which is SO typical XD some things never do change, i guess. and i was chatting with my sister's classmate on fb just now, for some weird reason. -.- i can't think straight when it's 12am.

forget it. i need sleep, and i gotta pack and plan revision schedule. :/ bye...

i don't know what to think.

i was doing this fb quiz about our pri school and suddenly this FLOOD of memories just came rushing back. so i shall dedicate a LOONG post to lego! :D (after exams -.-)

some people change entirely; some never ever change.

today was HCL and Lit. HCL was amazingly easier than i thought, but lit was.. ughh. anyway i'm going to die so.. yeah.
then me amanda and fang went back to nanyang! :D cherlene couldn't go, she had to look after her sister... )): first 3 of us plus june limin lewin wanling qingyun went to island creamery. amanda and i shared MUDPIE :D then we went next door to macs for lunch x) i had this SUPER YUMMY mcspicy (:
then we walked back to ny... talked to mrs chan, chen lao shi and mr tan a bit, and gave 5L(?) our leftover fries from macs. the guys ate them up SUPER fast lorh. weirdly the girls didn't want them leh. hmph. if my seniors brought back fries i'd be HYPER. XD
mrs chan cut her hair, it looks quite nice lah. chen lao shi and mr tan are still the same... and ms mok wasn't wearing black!!! o.O right?! she was wearing this brown dress XD and she refused to take pic with me )): oh well.

oops i REALLY gotta sleep... bye!