pfffttt. D:
i missed A for SBJ by ONE CM. and i deteoriated by 20cm O: i jumped 187 last year lah.
damn.
hehe congrats fang, she got 10.1 for shuttle run! o.O and a lot of ppl like edith and siyan jump super far for SBJ. XD but IPU was crap la, ppl just DIED. yanru and siyan did 17 though. super pro right. :D i scraped 13, just a B then dropped liao. X: lol boon jumped 150cm with her injured knee... ouch. well at least she just made it with a C. congrats! :D
ms syahidah's last day today ): she took a pic with us, and we drew this big thing on the board (: then we went through assignment 1, and watched youtube vids! we watched shrek trailers and some thingy about this suicidal dog. and it was actually a bridgestone tyres ad -.- oh and we watched CHARLIE THE UNICORN. -.- super weird la but quite funny XD and the dove advertisement thingy too...
lol mas selamat FINALLY captured. this is like the first time i saw such GIGANTIC headlines lorh. they devoted the entire front page to him lorh -.-
sigh mugged chem just now... at least i've done 2/3 of seperation techniques, and acids & alkalis. chem SPA today, was... ok i guess. and if i say anymore i'll get killed D:
the problem with swimming is that i get way too much time to think, because it's just plain, boring old me underwater.
it's called a first impression because it's one and only. once it's over, it's gone forever. and the agonizing thing is wondering how things might just have turned out instead of this current mess. maybe if i got a chance to redo everything, where would i be? i know living with regrets is pointless, but i simply just can't let go. i'm going to try though, or else everything is going to get a hell of a lot worse.
once i thought that you guys would be there to cushion my fall, but now i think i'm just going to tumble straight onto those sharp, treacherous rocks instead.
please give me the strength to survive this, like i survived psle last year; and to change things. because every year has its rough patches, and whining about it simply doesn't help. although when we look back to those days, all we remember is the great times, it all lingers below the surface, somewhere.
i'm going to try, one day at a time. most likely it won't work, i'll just sink even furthur. but let me try to do things for once, instead of say it all the time, like i always do. how many times have i said i'll work on it, i'll start tomorrow?
just don't give up, coz if you do it's really the end for me.
because sometimes it just hurts.
May 8, 2009