i want to scream or cry or SOMETHING D: today was such a jumble of things and it kept getting worse, i don't want to get up tomorrow.
today started off quite okay actually, just kinda boring .__. assembly was quite disappointing lah our cheers were kinda pathetic D: then met our FT/CLET, they're quite decent i guess. i can't believe mrs leslie taught my mom's colleague before though O.O then the talks were quite boring i guess :/ though i liked the balloons for the tarbet house talk hehe :D
choir farewell! started at 3, and they ordered pizza YUM (: and there was a lot of chips, etc XD qiqi brought turkish delight omg it's super yummy! every time i see the name i think of narnia leh XD
the games and everything were really fun! the baby photo guessing was funny lol. fiera sang i will remember you, which didn't really sound as good as it could have ): later the sec 3s and 4s sang for them, it was really really nice omg. and the forfeits were so funny plus the sweets! :D
then varsha and shzehui talked to alto 2 and gave us our presents, etc. i felt really guilty coz i didn't get/make them anything ): and all of a sudden it hit me that we've been part of rgschoir for one whole year and now it was our turn to be the seniors, the ones who actually know what's going on. i've always thought of the sec 4s as the pillars of the choir, as those who will always be there to lead us, without really thinking of the fact that they're really and truly leaving. so i guess i just want to say thank you for everything that you guys have done for us, everything that you have taught us and being wonderful(: even though no one is going to read this but ohwell.
i guess sitting there i had so many regrets, because i didn't take the chance to get to know more people better, to try to become a part of rgschoir. at the end of our four years, we all have a chance to leave our own mark on rgschoir, to help make a difference in it. we are who we make ourselves to be, and the scariest thing is that i have no freaking idea how to change all of that. there must be something seriously wrong with me, i screwed up like every part of my life. things start off okay, then i have no idea before everything becomes something i don't know how to salvage. i know you'll never read this, but michwang thanks for like inspiring me to try. i have no idea how but... oh well. if i'm ever going to change anything, i'll need to start somewhere.
came home and called amanda, i guess talking to her helped me feel a lot better (: even though you'll never read this either, thanks :D
then my grandma scolded me coz -gasp- she didn't know that rgs pinafores are supposed to be at knee level! sheesh. plus my darling siblings stole all my sweets that i was saving from new year's day and ate them all up IN ONE AFTERNOON. ughhh.
i think today is the worst day in 2010 already. what a great way to start sec 2.
i'm going to sleep now, hopefully things will be better tomorrow (:
January 5, 2010
cause it's goodbye;