a reflective post today, after a lot of mostly boring recounts of outings and choir :D maybe it'll be a refreshing break for the people who actually read a tiny bit of my posts...
but before you read it, remember that, maybe, i'm just not as good a person as you. maybe my judgements and priorities are different. and i'm obviously a work in progress, we all are. but that doesn't make me any lesser. so DON'T judge me just because i'm me.
i'll remember chloe's words today for quite a while. for the past few weeks i know that i've been complaining loads about choir practices, which, looking back, is so typical of me but oh well. i guess i just needed a reminder that i should be singing for the right reasons - to make music, to perform for our audience. instead i was just biding my time, stoning through choir practices a day at a time, just counting down towards the end of the concerts, so i'm trying to change my mindset.
although i'm obviously not a very enthusiastic or social or nice batchmate, although i never know what to do or where to go, hopefully time will eventually change things. but at the very least, one thing that sec one has taught me is how to be less annoying and act like a normal person.
you know, one thing that i admire about ariel is that she doesn't care about what others think. maybe her wheelchair exclamations and etc aren't very appropriate at some times, but still. if i learnt a bit of it, maybe i'd get in less trouble.
reading blogs today made me realised how i don't really have many priorities, plans or commitments. so here are some plans for 2010:
1. keep my GPA floating about 3.6
2. IMPROVE MY CHINESE
3. improve my singing too! gosh today i could just FEEL my voice stuck in my throat and trying to get out... wait i'm going to practice what stef and enting taught me now.
4. not give up so easily
5. learn to talk to people better
6. exercise more! heh shall go jogging after choir concerts XD
7. save more money $___$ damn i'm so broke arghh.
turns out that pouring everything out does help me make sense of it a little, and for that i'm glad (:
cause what's important has to be done, and fun & heaven can wait :D
October 31, 2009