i noticed that everytime i post about hana kimi no one tags .___. so i shall bring my rants to my lj instead :D
got our papers back today! i'm generally really happy with my grades, thankfully when i mug i actually do quite okay-ly (: just a bit sad about my chinese but oh well my 4.0s for everything else cheer me up :D and stupid lit i missed 4.0 by ZERO. POINT. TWO marks. WTH :/
okay no one cares wth i'm saying. nevermind :D
choir today was okay i guess... did aitakute for most of the time. and our warmups sounded excruciating coz we were screeching, couldn't reach the note X: then i was so damn sleepy that halfway through aitakute i was dozing off while standing up .___.
when i hear my sister watching hana kimi, i just feel kind of sad i guess. maybe it's coz we can't be in such a carefree, happy world, where things eventually turn out all right.
i suppose it'd be weird to start talking about love when i haven't the least experience. just another reason in that gigantic depressing list.
i wish i'm good at letting bygones be bygones. just a thought, if i had figured out all this like a few years ago, would i be happier now? would i be a nicer, more friendly, better person?
sometimes, no matter what, things just don't work out that far. and i really
shouldn't want it to turn out that way i guess, coz it's just disappointment. and the fact that i don't deserve to know.
reading through my old posts from the start of the year is quite interesting, especially since now i'm a lot less... idk. cheerful?
forget it. no one knows or cares what i'm saying anyway. just venting some stuff going around my head, but writing it in a way that i think only i understand.
till I look at my hands and feel sad;
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly.
October 20, 2009