moving to livejournal for a while, come find me HERE! i like the idea of locking some posts for only myself to read (: but i'll keep this blog for my archives, plus i like the url :D
k back to mugging geog ):

zz i'm so thoughtless, seriously. which goes to show, the internet is truly freaky in some ways D: and i need to think more reasonably ugh. i feel so disgusted at myself now :/
thank you for telling me at least. i need to stop second guessing myself all the time and just dare to do things. since i'll end up seeming really stupid either way. i need faith in myself grrr.
am i really changing and doing things differently this year? i guess i'm telling myself that i need to be more outgoing and all, but i'm not changing much, just thinking that i did. my stupid hesitations are holding me back. how many more times am i going to tell myself that this time, this will be different?
gosh i feel like an idiot.
read on fang's blog that i only get what i am willing to give. totally true, but i'm wondering what if what i have to give is even good enough for people to want it.

at least i finally mugged geog today (:
wondering if i should move to lj, blogger is getting boring and i wanna use my pretty icons! but i'm lazy to figure out all the lj stuff haha.

CLASS PARTY OMG :D
i got super lost on the way there, there are a LOT of buses going around eunos argh. and i stupidly called thalia for help only to realise i was standing right OUTSIDE the condo lol.
at first the party was super fail, there were like 7 people there haha. spent the time throwing charcoal, eating beehoon and wrestling with lizzi omg! the wrestling bit was fun, trying to shove lizzi off this low concrete barrier thingy (: AND I WON WOOHOO. though someone helped a bit heheh -.-
then everyone got hungry but nothing to barbecue so we ate celeste's beehoon and mrs leslie's punch :D and we always end up playing i have never during meals...
barbecuing was quite fun though i was one of the only people that dared to TOUCH the raw chicken, much less skewer it haha (: the sausages and chicken wings were totally yummy. and lizzi's marshmallows are heavenly :D
then WATER BALLOON FIGHT omg that was epic. then afterwards all the plastic bags were all over the place XD then since everyone were kinda wet we wadded around the baby pool and eventually got totally soaked :D haha omg that was fun we had a lot of random races like wheelbarrow (which is TOTALLY hard on my arms but fun!) and duck waddling x) after a while we just gave up and jumped into the pool :D it was so cool and big and DEEP haha.
and the security guard came to chase us out of the pool coz everyone was in shorts and tees ): so we showered then while i was waiting for the showers by the pool, i was like swimming alone and it was just so peaceful and quiet. the water was like really smooth and cool and nice and all :D random but i love doing flips in the water hahaha.
after swimming everyone was STARVING again so we started up the bbq and lizzi was cooking weird stuff. like turning a donut into an eclair, then putting butter, konuyaku jelly, chips and marshmallows on it O: and she marinated a chicken wing in butter + fruit punch HAHA. chips with marshmallows taste decent though, surprisingly. then me and thalia were karaoking lady gaga and justin bieber, while standing up on a bench hahaha.
while waiting for people to go we went to mrs leslie's house, her cats are cute! watched house on tv, omg i want cable -.- then it was time to go ):
ohwell even though only had 1/3 if the class there, like thalia lizzi cheryl lexine fangqin becky kirsten celeste me and yunwen it was still super fun! hopefully can have another one in june hahaha :D
and now my grandma is chasing me to sleep ARGH bye.
twoeleven rocks ttm ♥

480th post! and to mark the occasion...
i finished watching glee! i'm feeling more sad than happy hmmm ): but emma and will are so sweet together :D
choir today was fun :D choreo in the morning, my fav was ANTR of course xD even though now my knees still ache from all the going up and down. and now i need to practice omg, at least i can finally remember all the IWIA steps! hehe.
lunch was yummy even though the fries were a bit gross...
listening to the seniors busk was like WOW :D i love the sec 3's viva la vida! :DD and the sec 4s medley too(:
I NEED NEW SOCKS DAMNIT.

batch meeting was fun! :D i like the design! hopefully we can paint well hurhur. then we went for batch lunch at kfc :D thanks to my *@#(&% (random swear word xD) teeth, i couldn't eat anything but FRIES and bubble tea. but i miss ice lemon tea ice blended, yum! then everyone was eating fried chicken and all ): and chippy's sausage + mash potato looked awesome AHHH.
OMG i wanna learn to play don't stop believin' on the piano! but so far i can't find the score ):
i'm done with house rules! i think it's a lot less dramatic than the rest of the books but still great :D
i wanna sleep/go jogging or ANYTHING that will distract me from everything that's mixed up and falling apart, everything i ought to be doing, from this mess, from you.

i need to remember what i was thinking yesterday. because sometimes there's nothing else that'll get me through the end. i don't know what to do, because i guess either way it makes no difference. it's like it works for short moments but eventually just... dies out. so i give up on it cause nothing's gonna change anything, so i might as well put on a smile and turn away.
i have no idea why i typed this here. because i'm lazy to fill up another post, maybe. either way it's vague and nobody will understand it, just the way i like it (:

a word's just a word, til you mean what you say;
that's why they'll just stay words.

/edit
OMG OUR WEIRD DREAMS ARE EPIC HAHAHA. i wish we can record them and watch on dvd or something! but so embarassing heheh. i love those dreams that i wake up and feel really happy because my head's still a hazy blank :D either way i wish i'll remember this dream! ): but it's like good times, eventually they all fade off. happy memories just fade faster than sad ones.
i hate that feeling i get when i have so many things to say but nothing fits, or i simply don't want to becuase i know how it'll end anyway.

ignore my fangirling for awhile x)
MR SCHUE IS SO COOL :D
ahahaha. i love watching gleeeeeee.
spoilers btw hehe. poor emma omg ): EMMA AND WILL SHOULD TOTALLY JUST GET TOGETHER. stupid terri is such a brainless bimbo :/
rachel is so pro haha, i love her voice. but she falls so easily ): puck and finn are so hot! omgosh. but both are so freaking stupid. AND POOR SUE ARGH.
i'm turning into such a brainless fangirl ugh.
okay back to normal reality.
sighh i seriously need to get more work done. i wish i can watch glee and do math at the same time ><
now i'm trying that out :D sigh. so far my schedule for march holidays is filling up slowly but surely, but i hope i won't waste too much time as i always always do D: i don't think this holiday is going to be that great but i guess i need time to catch up on my work.
so term one is over, it really really really flew past. i guess so far i'm still trying to get everything together and really get down to it and focus. but hopefully sec 2's gonna be a less dramatic year. and i need to mug harder! gosh.
okayy so it's definitely time to sleep, goodnight :D
it's probably easier to be optimistic after a big dose of glee and it's in the middle of the night, when tomorrow may have that ray of sunshine after all.

today was boring in many ways but still eventually happy! :D
chinese LJ was so boring DD: our class is damn pro and funny, when they say we must speak chinese, no one bothers to answer the tour guide's questions xD but it was mostly really boring, i kinda blocked out all the info in my head oops.
sighh LJ week is OVER ): i think kukup was the best! it's like one of the best days of this year, seriously (: oh well march holidays are next, homework isn't that bad luckily. hopefully it's going to be fun! i can't wait for class party and outings.
then went for lunch with kirsten and liyin! :D quite fun haha. i think 211 needs to bond out of our cliques more... so it was a good experience, less awkward than i imagined (:
then walked around ps/junction 8 with weiying :D we were staring at foooooood! and i realised that her house is like a gigantic food cupboard omg, everything i wanna eat, she has. like STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE! and we were looking at clothes/berets too haha cool! i can't believe cotton on berets are five bucks O: then we went to bishan library and fell asleep there haha. the aircon is awesome (:
german was FUN XD a lot of weird random pictures, talking too much and eating biscuits in class heheh. oh yeah the pics going up soon, i got this epic video of eugenia and tamisha's secret handshake thingy HAHA!
glee is totally awesome, have i said that too many times yet? i need to download the soundtrack then i finally have smth decent to listen to :D back to glee and downloading the soundtrack wheeee(: i wanna learn the guys' mashup dance OMG COOL :D why are so many good glee videos being taken off noooo ):
whooo i finbally got a set of decent headphones, i'm gonna try them out now... AND HOUSE RULES OMG :D book vouchers are great.

i wonder if all that is true.

today - mushroom pasta, watching gleeeeee, nice violin music, basketball and climbing walls! hahaha. and guys from ___ are Despo :/ i can't believe how deaf i am sometimes sigh.
i wish i have cable tv! ): then can watch, yes, Glee, House, Mercy and American Idol! :D
i feel so proud of myself, finally i'm done my compo!
AND MS TSANG ACCEPTED US FOR RS WHEEEE :D our group is so pro, we can chiong the proposal in ONE day and she said we had put thought into it! which is true actually (: now that's one thing done, phew.
OMG I LOVE GLEE. it's like amazing music, tangible emotions and humour all put together, even though the main thing is kinda similar to hsm it rocks so much more(: whoo episode two next! -.-
♥ me

wish there was a way that i could make you understand

today sucked omgggg ):
RS workshop started off okay, quite fun at first! we did jigsaw puzzles. our group - mary fanjin becky fangqin weiying edith me - ARE DAMN PRO :DDDD we finished our first puzzle TWICE in the time it took for lizzi's group to do one lol! and the puzzles were of DISNEY PRINCESSES D: so by the fourth puzzle we got seriously pissed off coz their dresses are SUPER hard to put together :/ and there's always some random castle, flowers and birds in the background ugh. snow white looks even worse zoomed in!
then the second half was totally horrible, i just kept sleeping and sleeping coz of my stomach ache D: and i puked twice :/ i think the teacher must have been super pissed off at me, coz i never even heard a word that he said. then after RS i was like totally half dead so i just went home sigh. at least when i got home can SLEEEEEP :D i wanted to go to the ford factory though! ): it's quite cool lorh sigh. and we didn't end up with a class lunch ):

epic convo! HAHAHA.
edith says:
whats so funny xP
my legs are refusing to listen
i'm the new "msn potato"
sinyee; says:
MSN POTATO?! XDDDD
HAHAHAHAHA ;P
edith the potato
sinyee; says:
the potato chip!
cut you up
FRY you
sprinkle salt and enjoy~~
edith says:
lol
i'm a big fat potato
not a thin chip
sinyee; says:
thats why i said cut you up
make a big fat BAG of chips :D
edith says:
yay
what flavor haha
sinyee; says:
chili :D
edith says:
or bball flavor?
I'M HOT
sinyee; says:
O:
bball = RUBBERY

I WANNA WATCH GLEE!
that's gonna be my march/june hols project :D sigh. i need to sort out my work omg there's like geog/history essays, ENGLISH PT (oh shit) and SAs soon and i STILL don't know what i'm doing.
going to start by getting my butt offline so byebye :D

KUKUP TRIP WAS AWESOME (:
i love twoeleven'10! ♥♥♥
we're probably the only class that comes to school early JUST to play cards. and play cards everywhere, such as on the bus and during lunch HAHA. and sing non-stop on the bus .__.

anyway! start RIGHT from the beginning(:
making us come at 6.45am was so pointless lorh! D: by the time the buses actually came it's like 8am liao ): then 211 was the last to get on the bus some more D: so when it finally came we were cheering and jumping around in the carpark! the bus ride was fun! awesome music, Go Fish and lots of talking(: now i have this super long list of good music to download.

the organic farm was quite interesting but REALLY hot inside the greenhouse! D: luckily i never wear jeans phew. and i like the swings at the farm, so fun! :D mary was trying to swing so hard so that i'd puke/fall out :/ then everyone was like crowding around inside the shop buying stuff -.- i bought oat biscuits! YUM I LOVE THEM LORH :D

lunch was nice! i was SO FREAKED that they'd give us plain organic with lots of plain and yucky veggies ): coz they said it was at the organic farm... but the food was surprisingly good :D towards the end we were playing I Have Ever, so whoever who didn't do that had to eat haha. by that time i was the only one still eating coz the bus ride was killing everyone's appetite D:

kukup itself was interesting, the houses there are so different but quite cool :D we saw lots of rats and mudskippers there O: i wish we got to take the ferry ride! MOE is so strict sigh. then after the tour of kukup ended everyone was crowding around the drinks shop HAHA. so we went to one slightly further away that was totally ulu -.- and near the bus we saw this shop which sold clothes and we found these super cute pairs of hawiian shorts! :D weiying and i bought matching pairs haha! at first i got pink and she got orange but we traded eventually(: we're gonna wear it to class party! x) in fact i'm wearing them now lol. they're so.. orange :D

the bus ride back was very fun! :D during the middle we were playing card games, like EIGHT people lol. then i was sitting on the FLOOR of the aisle so i was so freaked that i'd fly out the window :/ but i didn't! or else i won't be here lorh lol. coz the people sitting at the back had been singing the WHOLE trip O: so mrs leslie was like, if you don't stop singing i'll shove my dirty socks into your mouth! D: then i was like oops. coz i was singing at the top of my lungs right behind her... but she couldn't hear me anyway coz of the backseat people :D and weiying and i were discussing interesting deep stuff :D

i wish we could have gone for class dinner! or another class trip :D today was DAMN fun coz everyone was super hyper and crazy so it's like we can do any crazy things~ it's like being on holiday for a day! and with friends some more (:

KUKUP TRIP IS AWESOME ♥
okay time to sleep now my head is hurts like crap. i still can't stop listening to that glee song ahh x)