today choir performed in assembly.
i was so proud when i heard ppl in 111 and 112 saying stuff like"omg they're so pro!!" but i think that the choir wasn't at their best today... some ppl who can actually IDENTIFY pitch told me they went off. but i really think white horses was fantastically done, and there was that moment of stunned silence before everyone started cheering and clapping the roof off. :D
ahaha everyone was laughing at the high BERROOOO bit XD and they though the song ended so they clapped. o.O then when it REALLY ended belinda was like, are you SURE this is the end? and yunwen asked me if we sang weirdly like this every prac. -.-
i <3 rgchoir, you guys rock the WORLD. i'm so proud to be part of this TOTALLY PRO choir even though i ended up making it sound worse...
i hated that feeling i got whenever ppl asked me why i wasn't onstage. it's like they're digging into my skin, unintentionally of course. and trust me, many ppl did. i'm sorry if i was a bit snappy or cold, but i just hate that pierce of regret. i nearly cried during word game, at the bero bit. it's like a tsunami of regret, sadness, shame and pride just washed over me. i knew that cheryl was looking at me coz i was sitting next to her, and it was really hard to blink my tears away and keep my voice from wobbling when ppl told me that rgchoir is really good. if i had worked a whole lot harder, maybe, just maybe i could be one of those onstage thinking: omg i just KNOW ppl are going to laugh their heads off at me, and freaking out. but because i was lazy and my voice was sucky, instead i was stuck in the audience, wishing that i was up there. i know i'm whining like a spoilt brat and it's obviously not the end of the world, but i really thought that i had put it behind me, behind this big wall, when i really hadn't, and the wall was just a piece of cardboard. pretending really does hurt.
i am so sorry for complaining so much. ):
i think that trying to do homework in class with weiying yanru gen sudesna mary liyin nicole cheryl siyan all laughing and trying to memorise french/jap really helped, it put things into perspective and made me realise how stupid i was.
and i was just going home when nanshan and ariel told me there was CHOIR. o.O mary tan again... no comment. ack i was FREEZING coz i was right in front of the freaking AIR CON that was at 18C or something. and now the alphabet song is stuck in my head. -.- then me nanshan nicolette went far east! XD i only got bubble tea though, coz not much money... ): but sitting outside mogu-mogu and chatting was so fun (:
sigh i probably won't be posting tomorrow, i have this MOUNTAIN of homework to finish coz sunday my PT grp is coming over! yippee and they're staying for dinner! ;D we're having bbq, coaz my dad finally decided to dust off the bbq pit. -.- i hope he doesn't burn anything...
I WANT TO GO WATCH SYF. shit lah, seniors drew lots to see who could go watch coz they only have 10 seats for some weird reason. and I DIDN'T GET IN. D: i KNOW, it's not the end of the world either but i don't know why i am just so UNLUCKY in terms of choir nowadays. ok shall quit whining.
ack i have Lit PT to do, PLUS GERMAN TEST. ok i REALLY can't be so stupidly careless again. D: shall go change skin and study. bye...
i just kind of hoped;
April 3, 2009