i REALLY shouldn't be here.
but i shall give myself a 20min break on the computer.
oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YENJEAN~!
hahas x)
haiz i got 1/4 for my history GA coz i'm freaking lousy at PEEL. ok. i shall be diligent and REVISE. so my history ws and revision calls. bye!
i hate being overshadowed by you ALL THE TIME. for four freaking years everything you did was better than me. and if it wasn't it was coz you "can't be bothered" or you simply don't care. it's like everything i actually manage to do totally doesn't matter. and every time i do badly, and you, obviously, ace it, the sight of you acting modest makes me want to cry.
you have everything; all the people i want to be friends with, the brains, the talent, the fun character, the hype and the bubbly-ness. i know i'm a boring person when i'm just so tired and just can't stand acting fun any more. and if i'm angry or in a bad mood, i REALLY don't see the need to tell almost everyone in the class and blame it on pms especially if it's NOT.
i know you've helped me out many times in the past, and i'm really grateful for it; i just don't like the other half of our friendship. however much i try to ignore it, it just keeps popping up in my face every single freaking DAY.
i really didn't mean to hurt you if i did.
ignore those paragraphs. i'm not emo, just angry. i can't even be bothered to put it in a minute font. coz who cares if anyone reads it? no one reads this blog anyway.
about a totally different issue:
i'm not over it;
February 23, 2009